if someone loves a flower

从前我们喜欢排排坐 争着嚷着吃着糖果
分不清楚时就都爬树去 谁爬的高谁分的最多
如今我们不吃糖果 甜蜜的话是听的太多
大家笑着争个死活 谁爬的高谁掌声最多

从前我们喜欢团团坐 猜谁的枕头里梦儿最多
说不清楚时就捉迷藏去 谁藏的好谁掌声最多
如今话儿是兜个圈子说 猜谁的口袋里名片最多
你我都爱把眼泪藏起 谁藏的好谁掌声最多

从前我们喜欢一块坐 听著奶奶把她的故事说
奶奶说完了都到院子里去 看天上星星不停闪烁
如今人人都亲热得多 转过头就把你来数落
谁的心没有默默地痛过 满天的星星也疲倦得多

we cannot turn back time, there is no alternative but to move forward and make the most of what we have now.

-_-"

today, some sales promoter came to my house, and the first thing she did when i opened my door was to stick a ballpoint pen in through the grilles and scribble on my wall. My nice, white wall which my mum had spent ages painting just a month or two ago. She wanted to show me how effective her wall cleansing solution was. the sponge she used to wipe off the ink must not have been very clean though, because while she did get her ink stains off after a while, she left black marks on my (newly painted white) wall.

great way to make sure i waited to see her demonstration, but worst way ever to make sure i actually entertained any thoughts of buying her product.

X__X

finals start tomorrow!

was too tired to mug late last night so i slept by midnight, and was plagued by a whole series of nightmares involving me having forgotten to buy stationery to use in the exam, being late for the exam, being all the way at ADM block still even though the exam had already started at MPSH, and so on and so forth.

trying to finish cramming in sociology stuff before tmr's paper, arghhhh.

can't wait for 3rd december when finals end :)

muggitude.

spent my morning today completing the last couple of pages for a sociology reading and listening to the webcast lecture for the same chapter. i meant to be rather more productive this morning but i guess it's a good thing that at least something got done! :) i suppose i'll try and study some more for sociology when i get back home from afternoon lecture. today's lecture looks as if it's going to be quite comprehensive and useful since it's a review lecture, so i'm hoping it'll be the worth the three-hour bus/train ride to nus and back. (:

byebye semester!

week twelve! :) one more week till the end of the semester, then the dreaded week of finals, and then holidays! can't wait. (:

nothing very much to talk about, life is pretty much alright but rather uneventful. trying to work up the willpower to study hard, looking for new jobs and sources of income, and generally being in a reasonably decent mood because the semester's ending and i'm really looking forward to the december holidays! haha.

final midterm paper

south asian studies midterm exam on friday which i am ridiculously unprepared for. i keep getting distracted, and even when i try to focus i cant absorb the important points from my readings. i think my brain is saturated from four straight weeks of mugging for all my various midterm exams. cannot fit in new material already.

am very tempted to just go in unprepared and flunk this paper, but you and i both know i won't because i'm a good singaporean mugger and even if i can't memorise anything, i will die trying during my four-hour break tomorrow before nusco sectionals. kiasu-ism has been deeply entrenched in me after a decade and a half of formal schooling.

on a side note, went for picnic lunch with kerry eve bernice huili michelle at botanic gardens today. (: had a really good time in which we barred ourselves from conversation related to school and studies and other stressful rubbish. we should do this again soon! and um. we saw two birds frenching! i didn't know birds could kiss. unless they were helping each other clean the interior of their beaks or something gross and practical like that, but i'm sure it was a display of romantic feathered affection. heheh.

castles in the air

Sometimes I wonder if I should have accepted that SMU law offer after all. I rejected it because the workload would be insane and because I doubted that I would be able to handle the stress of going into the profession after I graduate, but it's a decision I regret now.

I chose arts and social sciences because I wanted to be governed by my passions, but the courses I'm taking right now have pretty much eroded my previously overpowering interest in various fields. I don't know what I want to do in the future anymore. And perhaps, on another note, it is just as well that I didn't go to smu, since I'm already struggling to maintain a mediocre standard of performance in a supposedly less competitive and stressful course. I believed that I would fare better in arts, as I always have, but the demands here are very different and I don't know how to satisfy them, and I don't have many people to ask because I don't have a lot of friends here anyway.

I chose dunman high over st. nicholas after my PSLE because I liked chinese orchestral music and it was the former's niche CCA, although my parents preferred the second option. I chose Temasek JC over an elite institution because I had a great time in my CCAs during my first three months there. I've always followed my heart in such decisions and it has never failed me, so please don't start now.

Am I being an ungrateful egoistical discontented whiner? I don't know. Okay, south asian studies revision now.